Thursday, November 16, 2006 09:42 Y
hello...yesterday went out with my darlings...watched a movie...was supposed to watch step up but damn cwp didn't have..so,in the end,we watched material girls...no comments...serious...enough abt this...
i've been feeling really down this few days...i feel like my world is crashing down on me...i've been so moody...but of coz...it's that time of the month...that's not the point...the point is i just feel like history is going to repeat itself soon..very2 soon...i don't know why i feel this way but i just do...i feel like he's hiding something from me...something that i ought to know...why must i go through all this again??? i've not been sleeping well because of this...i've been crying the nights away... i've not been contacting him for abt 4 days now...what's 4 days to the 9 mths before??? the history is just too personal to be written here...i've been waiting for him to be online but everytime i'm online he's not..everytime my sister's online, he is...all this things are making me feel that we are not meant to be together...maybe all this are the tests & obstacles that i've to go through...but i'm just too tired to go through all this alone...i'm no longer strong enough for all this...i need a break from all this things...i hope he's reading this...i really do...i just miss him so much...from the way he talked to me the other night, i feel like he's trying to make me give up...i can't...even if i should, i can't...he's so different from the other guys...he really understands me...the way i feel towards him is definitely different...i really love him...i really2 do...this is dedicated to my one and only dear;muhd taha...