Thursday, January 04, 2007 21:05 Y
Hey people! How've u guys been doing huh? Sorry it's been days since I updated. No particular reason. Or maybe there is? For me to, for u to find out. Well, yesterday was the first day of school. It's damn boring, trust me. I'm gonna go like dead soon! Haha. The teachers are all like s*** I tell u! Got that "cikgu gile" for physics & that"blackie" for art. Haiz. So yesterday, basically the whole entire class were switched off. Everyone's not ready for school, I presume. As usual la. But surprisingly, today the class was super hyper! just like I expected. A noisy, rowdy & most importantly, CRAZY class! Haha. Lucky me, I get to sit beside my bestie for like 5 years, since Pri 4. Mohd Naszrul! Yipee! My wish has finally come true! Can irritate & disturb him like EVERYDAY! Haha. Oh! And did I mention how funny & ridiculous the guys look in long pants. Except for selected few like dan & the others. Haha. And ya! I miss my daryan!!!
I wasn't in a good mood yesterday. And let me repeat it, WAS NOT. Like what I mentioned in all the other previous entries, I WON'T be surprised if by any chance, history repeats itself. Serious. I'm prepared for the worse. I do hope I am. I've vowed to myself not to be miserable just because of guys anymore. I'll try to fulfil my vow. 'Cause I can sense & see the "symptoms" of all that was in the past. I won't be sad & I won't be crying over him. If it is ever to happen, I'll try to put behind me & start afresh. Yes. That's my new year's resolution. Why should I be crying over spilled milk right? So, if I have to let him go, I'll be more than ready to let him go. I'll be happy if he's happy. Yes, of course I'm gonna be sad but it's all Fate. I believe in Fate. And if I'm really fated to be with him, then I'll be with him one fine day. Like this saying goes,
" Jodoh di tangan Tuhan dan kalau dah jodoh, ia tak akan ke mana."
to You
If u want me to let u go, please be frank and come forward. Please don't be a coward cause I won't eat u up. I'll respect ur decision & u will be free to go to the girl of ur dreams. I know I'll NVR have the opportunity to be ur girl. Be it in the past, present or the future. I shan't be hanging on. I'll be HOLDING ON till I just can't hold on no more. Could be maybe all this while u've already got someone in ur mind. And the truth is that I can't change it. I'll just accept whatever ALLAH has in store for me. I shouldn't ask for more. I'm contented that I can spend sometime with u. Wonderful moments to go with it.Just in case u don't know, this past 7 months has been terribly great for me & I have u to thank. So, thank you for everything that u've done for & with me. All the best in ur future endeavours & I'm gonna miss ya. Just promise me that u won't hold back any dreams of yours & to always be happy & lively.till den...Gdbye...