Thursday, July 26, 2007 16:59 Y
Friends? What does that word exactly mean??? Yes, he may be the reason I still believe in that word. Where were u when I was at the lowest point of my life? Where were u when I needed u guys? I still need u guys in my life. Why was I being left out time and again? Why did ur attitudes change? U asked me, but did u ask urselves? Friends forever was the promise we all made. But will it last? All these started because of me??? That's so typical of people. Put the blame on others. I don't blame u guys. Coz maybe I'm one of them too. Okay. Let me tell u guys what & how I feel.
The three of us used to be so close. Yes, very close. I don't blame the others for us being apart. It's now between us three. Everything started going awry when u got together with atiq a few months back I think. U see, u & her started to stick together & left me alone. Why? Maybe because ur bf's are good friends. That's what I think. But still, I was happy for u girls coz u've found someone u loved. Yes, I was happy for u guys. & When u & him broke up, I felt the pain that u were going through. & I was the one of the last people to know that u & ur current bf got together. Did I say anything? No, coz I knew u had ur difficulties & reasons. & Now, I am being left out again because u two share something in common. Good for u. But does that give u a reason to dump someone? When u guys needed my help, did I ever say no? I tried to the best of my abilities to help u guys. Was I ever appreciated? U guys were too busy with ur own little groups & discussions to even notice that I still exist. Did I ever complain? Did u guys ever tried to ask my feelings? & Now, u guys wanna blame me for neglecting u guys. If u are referring to me always being with the guys, then I'm sorry. What would u do if u felt left out? I'm not as popular as u that almost the whole school are ur frens. I really need u guys here. True, liwi understands me. But there are some things that he won't understand. Every girl's problem. & that's where I need u guys. But I don't have u guys with me now. & If u are talking about me & that chrtr guy, let me say this again. We are merely frens. Is it a crime to make frens? Why am I always being given the wrong impression & perception? Spam me all u want. My conscience is clear. I love liwi & I will still love u girls no matter what. Please don't make me believe that the phrase "FRENS COME & GO" is true. But I guess u guys no longer consider me as part of ur frens right? I've done my reflecting. Isn't it time u guys do urs?