Tuesday, October 23, 2007 20:19 Y
I thought I can be strong but I'm only human afterall. Honestly, the entire bunch of us broke down yesterday. & I cried myself to sleep again last night. I didn't know how to face dan today. I made eye contact with him during morning assembly & the look in his eyes was not convincing. Moreover he was in the same group as me during the creative writing workshop. & The moment he stepped in, he looked at me & said goodbye. I just couldn't hold back my tears. I went out of the class after him & we talked about this. & Yes, I was trying to be strong in front of him. It's good to know that he has already woken up but too bad everything is too late & there's simply no room for regrets. & I was fuming mad plus disappointed plus heartbroken by what he said during the workshop. Everything just came flashing back into my mind. The messages he texted & the words he said just didn't help the situation any further. I admit that there's no point crying over spilled milk but that's the only way for me to express my emotions. I really couldn't take things any further when I saw him cry in front of ms maz. He's trying to show a brave front & I salute him for that. He's trying not to breakdown in front of us probably cause he doesn't want us to cry too. I admit that I love him. Alot. &I know everyone in the class feels the same. & teachers too. Though I'm in denial, I still have to accept the fact somehow. How I wish I could turn back time & change the situation. That's my heartfelt feelings. & I can still remember this things that he said, " I love u all la. Thnx for the support". " Kau nnt suroh syafiq & izwan jage class next year. Kalau ade pape, blang aku." I was just staring into his face & did nothing else. 3 Commitment is nothing without u danial. I need you, we need you & I know you need us. But I glad that u are on the postive note unlike me. No matter what the outcome may be tomorrow, we'll always stand by u. That's my promise to u dan.
SCORPIONS WE WERE ,
SCORPIONS WE ARE ,
SCORPIONS WE WILL FOREVER BE !
Friends forever.
with love,
`mira<3
`mira<3