I'm just out of words. Really. Maybe you didn't notice, but fact is that I was crying right under your nose; in front of you. You probably didn't care. But truth is, I just can't take it any longer. I was sobbing like a small kid after school, at the playground. Up to you to believe. I was infact with my girls. Ask them if you don't trust me. Do you how much it hurts when I talked to you & you simply give that "I don't care" look? Well, it hurts me badly & words just can't describe my feelings. Please don't assume that I told anyone anything when I don't. I was so glad that you were there when I messaged you yesterday about that thing. I was grinning from ear to ear when I was suppose to be feeling worried. Yes, thank you for that. & Thank you eiiqah for the concern. But I guess don't bother wasting your time on us. I know you have other things to do. I want our problem to be settled by us. Don't worry. However, I wish I could change lives with razzy cause personally I feel that his life is so carefree. No problems & stuff like that. Liwi, I just hope that this will end soon cause I'm really tired. Tired with this problems & tired with my life. That's why I used to ask you, "What would you do if something untoward were to happen to me?" & Till now, I'm clueless cause you leave the answer hanging. Just promise me that you'll take care of yourself if I'm no longer around to take care of you. & That's the only thing I'm asking from you right now.

& To Daryan:

Have a safe trip to Taman Negara okay hubby? I'm gonna miss you big time. (: Take care & I love you.

with love,
`mira<3