Saturday, December 20, 2008 17:53 Y
Spent my day today reading novels. It's been a long time since I read & now's a pretty good time to read since I'm still jobless. I slept at exactly midnight cause I was listening to KC on air. Me, being a coward didn't dare to listen to MJ12. Haha, but I had a good laugh listening to his segment. Imagine lying on your bed, at night & in the dark, laughing to yourself. Lol. At the same time, I did a lot of thinking too. I knew all along that it was a wishful thinking on my part. Come on, who am I kidding to. It takes two hands to clap but in my situation, it seems like I'm the only one attempting & it's never going to make a sound. I have to face up to the reality which says that I've to learn to let go. It's hard to let go, isn't it? But, I still need to be strong & move on. That's the decision I'm going to make, well at least for now. I want to let go. The feelings will definitely haunt me, still that's life. I will cherish every memory. (: Sounds emotional? I think so, cause after much procrastination, I've come up with an absolute decision. Yes, I shan't be fickle minded & indecisive. I have to be sure of my decision. I've made my decision and I wil try my best to make sure I let go. I'm not going to forget, never, it's not intention. I want our friendship to remain & that's the reason why I want to let go of my feelings. That's the path I've taken. I knew something was wrong when buddy asked that question then. And I think I now know why he asked. It took me a long time to realise but at least I did. Thank you buddy. I'll see where this decision of mine will lead to. On a brighter note, I had a funny dream which involves
Danial Ashriq! Haha. I was smiling when I woke up. I have this huge crush on him. I mean, I admire him just like how I admire Taufik Batisah. Starstruck! Haha.