I feel really down. Last night went to the wedding reception of a relative because we couldn't make it today. I thought I was stronger than this. But apparently I was deluding myself. Obviously he's there cause it's his brother's wedding. I thought I could avoid him like before. But his girlfriend's family was there too. That was an unpleasant sight. Really, it was weird. And the most shocking thing that I discovered is that my dad knows her dad. How much of a coincidence. How much smaller can the world get? I wasn't myself last night. I kept to myself mostly because of that and partly because of my PMS mode. It was so hard for me to not look at the surrounding. If only my babygirls were awake, at least they could cheer me up. It hurts a lot inside and I have no answers for that. No, not because I still have feelings for him because I'm so over him. Probably because he WAS my past. I cried on the way back home in the car. And I cried myself to sleep. Instantly the memories I had with him came flooding into my mind. I've not felt this heartache ever since he left. I honestly have no answers. Maybe soon enough I may be attending his wedding instead. Only time will tell. I never knew that this could make me weak and I thought I could handle it.I was listening to my MP3 and one song really describes what I'm going through. I've never come across a more meaningful song that describes exactly my feelings. Babes, I really feel down!
Semenjak kau kenali dia Pandanganmu mula beralih arah Aku di sebelah bagai tak nampak Seolah kasihku... sudah kau campak dari hatimu
Tak mampu untukku bersuara Tak mampu bersemuka dengannya Walau dihati marah membara Kerna ku sedar Cinta itu tak boleh dipaksa
Kiranya apa yang terucap selamanya ini Hanya sekadar madah penyeri suasana Oh amat pedih perasan kini bila Dipermainkan sewenang-wenang Olehmu yang kuanggap kekasih
Dalam keadaan yang tertekan Masih mampu ku bertahan Lainlah engkau waktu ini Bersamanya menyemai janji Terpaksalah kulupakan walau hati masih sayang Kerna engkau kini jadi milik orang
Tak perlu ku ucap bahagia Padamu kini bersamanya Kerna hati ini masih marah lagi Atas perbuatan yang telah mengguris perasaan
with love, `mira<3
yours truly
::MIRA ::
attached ♥
My family & friends are my life. Boyfriend & Girlfriends & Shazwan are my pillars of strength
They make my day;
Without them, I'm nothing.
Without them, I won't be what I am.
I wouldn't ask for anything more.
Vulnerable & insecure.
Sensitive & emotional.
Temperamental & insane.
Mood swings are inevitable;
They are part of me.
Love Me For Who I Am.
Hate Me By All Means.
Respect Me And I'll Respect You.
It is better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you are not ♥