Friday, July 10, 2009 23:50 Y
Do you know how much it hurts? Have you ever for once spared a thought for others if not me? Why does it have to be this way? No matter how ignorant you are, I gave in. Why? Because that's just the way you are. I knew things don't always ends up the way we want it. But neither did I expect things to turn out this way, ending on a bad note. Never! You called me sensitive just because I said what was bottling inside me, what was bothering me. That cracked me up actually. So, eventually you do have feelings. I finally managed to crack the shell surrounding you, to get you to feel something. I'm sorry though that you had to be pissed. Well face it, so do I. You don't care, do you? Neither do I, I don't care whether you care or not. That's not my problem, not anymore. Thank you for expressing what you feel. But unfortunately, I already knew it. I know I'm sensitive, well who doesn't? One way or another, that feeling will come to you. You want me to think over what you said. Yes, I will, for my own benefit. Thanks, but will you think over what I've said? No, because you simply don't care about what others say. Sometimes it's a good thing, but know the limits. Talking about limits, there's a limit to everything. So does my patience. Apparently, you've tested my patience too much; stepped on my toes for so long, that you've gone over the limits. There's so much I can take, but not when people put words in my mouth. Especially not from you, but since it already happened, there's no turning back. That was the last straw I can take. And I'm sure you're gloating because I assume that that had been your plan all along? Things happen for a reason? What reason can there be if it's going to end this way? You have your own things in mind and I have mine. Unfortunately, we don't agree on the same things, do we? Have you ever questioned yourself? What may be wrong, did you say the right things? That kind of questions, have you? Have you ever done some self assessing and self reflection? If you have not, I suggest you do. It might help you. A lot. Just think it over. I may be in the wrong sometimes, but you are never always right. Humans make mistake, and that includes you and me. So why do you always have to say things without ever thinking of the consequences? I’ve said this before and I will say it again, your words can sting like a bee. Yes, they can hurt a lot. Ever realised that? You can be too simple minded sometimes that it bothers me when it shouldn’t. You want to be heartless? That’s up to you now, not my problem; I don’t care. You’ll see me just the same, I’ll show you what being heartless really is. Thank you so much for everything or nothing. But it won’t be easy after what happened. This is exactly what I dreaded the most. And to think that it is happening. My fault that I can’t control and avoid this. You’re going to love this because why? I won’t be bothering you anymore, not anytime soon. You wanted me to think things over, didn’t you? I will do just that. So farewell, enjoy and thank you
D.
(Though I know you won’t be reading this first hand, I’m positive SOME people will tell you.)
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