Sunday, October 25, 2009 21:01 Y
I've been having recurring dreams about you and I can't explain why. I miss you. I need you. I'm dependent on you. I want you to pamper me like a little girl. I want you to protect me from all the harm I'm vulnerable to. I need your advises and your listening ear. I want to give you the greatest and warmest hug everytime I see you. I want to tell the whole world who you are to me. I want the best for you, just like how you want the best for me. I want you to change, turn over a new leaf. It's not easy, I know. Take baby steps, that's a good start. And I know you are trying already, yes I noticed. I want you to be safe. I really treasure your presence. I really do miss you though you are always here, with me. I don't want to ever lose you. I thank God for letting our paths cross. I'm greatful to have met you, to have you in my life. I love spending time with you because you're so busy these days. I love punching you and how I would hurt my hand when you don't even feel anything. I love smacking your tummy and see how you'd pout. I miss the times when you'd carry me on your back like a baby. I miss how you'd laugh at me and would pinch my cheecks whenever I whined. I miss skipping lessons and walking home with you. I miss you "scolding" me and give that one of a kind look everytime I said something that I shouldn't say. I miss the times when you'd come up to me and ask me what's wrong whenever I hid in a corner and cry. You'd always ask who bullied me, that you'd find that person who'd made me cry. That's the sweetest thing that ever came from you. I don't expect you to tell me your lifestory nor your problems. But I'd definitely be there if you need me. I don't have a brother to call my own. Therefore, I've long yearned for a big brother, a brother who'd love me and protect me from everything. And I've finally found the brother that I've been looking for. Though we're not related by blood, but I'm glad to have you as my brother. To date, you've always be there for me, to catch me when I'm falling, to guard me from dangers ahead. Which is why I hope that you'd always treat me as your baby sister who needs to be pampered, and never to judge me. Well truth be told, you've been a great brother to me, period. And I'm thankful for that. You may have your flaws, and so do I. You know how sentimental I am, so don't blame me for being emotional right now. I know that you too, are not the sentimental type unlike me. But just for this once, allow me to express how I feel. That being said, thank you for appearing in my life. Thank you for everything you've done, I really appreciate it. I'm sorry for all the wrongs I've done, the troubles that I've caused you. But most importantly, I thank you for being the greatest brother to me. I love you and I miss you abg.