Tuesday, January 12, 2010 14:39 Y
I'm doomed! I've been deluding myself all these years. I've been lying to myself. I was in denial. The vow is void, totally void! There's still a lot of risks, no doubt. Plenty of risks and I don't know if I should take the gamble. It won't be easy, it never has been. Not in the past, and even harder now. Sometimes I hate myself for falling for you. I don't know why it must be you. I don' t understand why you have to be the first and only guy I have ever loved. Circumstances are holding me back, making me think twice, thrice and a million times. I just want things to get better, to work out. To just find and ending to all these mess.