Sunday, January 03, 2010 20:05 Y
Crap, I almost gave in to my emotions. You didn't realise I was talking about you, did you? I expected it. I broke down last night when he asked those questions out of the blue. I just did, I tried not to but I can't. I was helpless, I just didn't know what to do. I didn't sleep a wink last night, just stared into blank space. After all the hard work I put in to push those memories away bit by bit, he came back and brought back everything at one go. It didn't help that I had to meet him two days straight though I tried my best not to look at him in the eye. After so long of not experiencing the heartache, it caught me by surprise when it came back last night and now as I type this. This is what I hate, the thing that I feared. Why did you have to come back into my life? I was doing fine with my life after you left and before you reappeared. It took me a while to mend the "unhealed-yet-broken-again" heart. Why? Why? Why? I don't need another heartbreak just so you know. I honestly hope that things will get better for you and your girl. I'll be happy to see you happy, truly. Though I won't deny that it might hurt, but I'll deal with it like I always do.