Friday, February 12, 2010 20:06 Y
I've been abandoning this blog for quite some time now. And I'm back with some updates. There's a possibilty that I may delete this blog, then again maybe not. It depends though. School's out! Awesome! Two months of holidays and off to second year. And I probably have to repeat a module. :) How fast time flies. And I mean it literally. A lot of incidents happened within this one year period in poly. May be looking for a job but most probably not. I have to tie a lot of loose ends in my life now. Have to fulfil my resolution, make up for lost time and plenty more to be done. Repenting soon, if that helps.
Life as a whole has been wonderful yet worrying. I am enjoying myself with him, yes I am. But despite the fun and all, I still have this tinge of guilt and anxiety. Please tell me I am doing the right thing. Please let this be the last and final ordeal that I have to go through. Please let happiness prevail in my life after this chapter. I have to be strong, not just for me, but for him too. No matter how painful it is for me, I have to put on a brave front for him to go on; for him to succeed. It has always been that way. I'll be happy if he's happy. That being said, I will be selfish this time. I have to fight for my happiness now. I won't give in, not anymore. I won't be the naive and gullible girl I used to be. The girl who gave in to others at the expense of her own happiness. No, that won't be the case. I shall do what I deem is right. Whatever it takes to make me happy.